hopeful...

my song of da day:

Giving Myself by Jennifer Hudson


I thought:
-if i offer you my love, i can finally be happy
-its ok to be so far away from you, but every minute away was a reason for me to be lonely
-its ok to wait, but have to ask myself until when will i be waiting
-if i give you the freedom to hurt me, i can be numb of just accepting it
-if i give everything you ask, its enough for you to realize you needed me by your side

but:
-why am i feeling like you are just like them
-why do i see you as just another guy who will come and leave
-why do i still feel empty even if i know i have you
-why do i have to wait, where i've already been waiting for someone like you my whole life

What keeps you so long to be here by my side? And what keeps me from still wanting you and wanting to be with you in time?

but still:
I dedicate this song for you, and only to you. And no matter how long i should wait, just to be with you is all i wanted. All im asking is for you to make me feel confident about us. And that this would be worth the wait......***hopeful

back then...

I just wanted to make a short blog about my school days. Because i miss my classmates!! Wahhh...How can this be so sad! :(

Wow, im so missing those days when i was still studying. :( I've had the best high school life and unforgettable college experience.

If someone would ask me what part of my life was the best, high school days. Although im kinda neird back then, i've had lots of friends (too many, actually). Im always active in school activies. And the most challenging part when i was elected as President in one of the two big societies in school, we call it Path Finders. Im not into dancing, im into singing and acting. But now, i can just look back to those days of my life. No more singing, no more acting, no more meetings, no more cutting classes and a lot no more. Hayyyy..And those ultimate crushes, omg! How i wish i can turn back time.



College days? Although i wouldn't want to go back to my college life (because of the "thesis" ayaw na parang awa!), i've had a wonderful experience. I've met some of the truest people on earth. And luckily for me, i am still keeping them until now. I guess im really lucky having my "barkada" who have been with me good / bad times. We call ourselves "shanghai". The reason is that, every lunch time we used to eat at a small carinderia. Obviously, our favorite food is "shanghai"..It's so funny how we used to eat it almost everyday! We just love it! And not only we are addicted to shanghai, we also love eating friend chicken after class. Wow, i've just realize we love to eat! Why is that? hehe.. Anyway, that's just our bonding, we cherish every moment, we love to always be together. What's weird is that all of us were broken hearted, seriously! Omg! That's why we need each other. I can say, that they had really touched my life even until now. We see to it that even if we're all in different places now, we still have communication. I now look forward to our reunion, which i am excited about. Yey! I can't wait to see them again...miss them so much! Especially now that i have my own life and everything had changed. I am preparing for my future, although future is still blur for me. But its ok, as long as my friends will stay for the rest of my life! I love them so much...miss you girls!!! :(




...the witch can now sleep, good mornight!!

Hey!

I needed to say:

Thank you, for being the source of my happiness. You're like my battery, i only function if you're here. Thank you for making me be "me", when the world tells me i am not. When the world tells me i am not supposed to be happy. When the world is asking me something in return for my happiness. Thank you for trusting me. Although i know its not a big deal for you. I just wanted you to know that for me, it is. Its not that i use you for my happiness, you were the way to my happiness. I am not expecting something more. But i am not ending the possibilities, im sorry i think i have to say that. Because we still don't know. We never can tell. But i guess, no. Now, im confuse. haha! But seriously, I am not playing around, its true that i care for you. Being your friend is an honor.

Although sometimes i don't understand you and your emotions. You are rude at times, but not so rude (tamang rudeness, in other words!). I just wanted you to know that im here to listen. I can always be your obidient friend? My heart is open for you, you already have the key to it. Just leave your slippers outside, ok?

I wanna keep you forever. Again, I am not expecting something more. I don't want you to say i assumed too much. Being your freind is more than enough. Thanks for your friendship!

--->im still ur,
wytwitch! :)

..i kinda hate the title of this..hmmm! but im loving this song :)

STATUS: Confuse.

Is it too much to ask to be loved by the person you love?

She never asked anything when she first love him. She did what she think that can make him happy. She gave love more than he deserves. But he was not happy still. She gave her world, time and affection. But for him, its not enough. He took her for granted. Is everything not enough? If its not enough, what else could she give? They said, love is not selfish. But why does he keep on asking for more? Why is he just thinking of his own happiness? Does she really need to please him? What about her? Who will please her? Who will give her what she want? Couldn't it be like, no one should ask for anything? Let each other give and show the love that they wanted to show without asking. . .Why does he ask a lot. And why is her everything not enough? Is it because her everything was not the everything that he wanted? She's confuse. Still confuse. She just wanted to be happy, get what she deserve, be love in return, not be taken for granted, and not being ask for giving her everything although her everything was not enough for him after all. Why still ask for it?

It should be equal, durrrrrrmmm!!!!!!!!! :(

--->forgiven, but not forgotten.

I remember you teached me to play guitar. It feels so great learning. But for me, at that time, the most important thing was you. Important moments that i've had in my entire life, being with you was like counting the best days of my life. I remember almost every minutes we had together was so precious. Do you still remember many didn't like you for me or me for you? It was so hard, yes it is. But then, i still believe in the love that we have for each other. I felt so secured and that nothing can tear us apart. Its like im living my everyday life for the reason that i have you and you needed me.

And so i remember the very first song i've learned from you...



After 3 years, i realized why you had taught me on playing this. Its not that i blame you for what had happened to our failed relationship. But i come up with the fact that, i have to sing this song for you. Do i have to cry for you? This time, do i still have to cry for you? 3 years have gone so fast, but here i am still haunted by our past. I know i shoud move on. But why is it so hard? I have had love, well, some guys after you. But nothing could ever compare the love i have felt from you. I guess, i shouldn't compare them, it would be so unfair. And besides, they did their best to make me happy, it just didn't work. Because the truth was, i am still in love with you. Yes i am, at least now i've learned to live without you, but still loving you. I guess they're right. Once you love someone, you never stop loving that person. Its just that sometimes in some situation, time is asking you to stop showing it. Which is, i should say, the hardest part. Should i still be asking myself with the same question over and over again? Stop it!! From now on, i will love the person who's loving me and willing to make me happy like the way i wanted. I need to have my life back. And im sure, i know, you won't give it back. So now, im trying my best to look for it to someone else. It may not be exactly as what you've shown me, but this time i will make sure it will be exactly what i deserve.

Do they still exist nowadays?

A guy who could do all these for his girl, i'll be so jealous!! I hope they still exist...This is a repost that im sharing. And hopefully guys would have some ideas of what girls really like or want. Although i know, if you truly love someone its easy doing all these things for your girl without someone telling you to do it, you'll just do. For once in a girl's life, gives us more love! I mean, that's just what we really wanted. Let me just say "maepal and papampam" we really are. Sorry girls, i think i just have to admit it. So here it is, enjoy...:-)


60 THINGS A GAL/LADY/WOMAN WANTS BUT WONT ASK FOR!!

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her everywhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING...

11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it...

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car (if any)- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she's your everything - ONLY if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE IT AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US

26. DON'T lie to her
27. DON'T cheat on her!
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants
29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER BECAUSE, IT'S IMPORTANT

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK: (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT

36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle.
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED

41. Call or text her EVERY night to wish her SWEET DREAMS
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.
46. Rub her back--feels good
47. Give her your coat if she's cold--thats always cute
48. Write letters on her back with your finger--feels good ;D
49. Let her sit on your lap
50. DON'T poke her hard...but if you want to mess around just do it lightly.
51. HOLD her HAND in PUBLIC.
52. Even if she looks BAD one day tell her she's BEAUTIFUL
53. Keep conversations flowing...talk about anything usually they just go along with it.
54. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionatley and gently.
55. Surprisingly sneek up on her and hug her from behind--loves it.
56. Kiss her in the rain.
57. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.
58. Slow dance with no music
59. Don't ignore her or be nerveous around her--everything is going to be okay.
60. Love her, kiss her, hold her, and you'll be good to go. ;D

Worth The Wait----

Im loving the songs of Jordin Sparks. I can relate to almost all of her songs! Wow...:) And this song really fits my current life entitled "Worth the Wait". This is for my baby...I love you so much! <3





---i know it will be worth the wait! Can't wait!!!!