we all deserve to be happy!

...just sharing this quote i received 3 years ago. yes, 3 years ago..hehe.. this was the time that i was learning how to let go of the things that isn't for me or not the right time for me to have it. Here it is:


Don't let your heart run your life.
Be sensible and let your mind speak for itself.
Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.
Always remember that if you lose someone today,
it means that someone better is coming tomorrow.
It's true that love can wait forever.
But it's crazy to stubbornly hope for someone
who doesn't even care or understand how you feel.
You deserve to be happy
not in the arms of someone who keeps you waiting,
but in the arms of someone who will take you now
and love you forever.


...it's been 3 years now that i have celebrated valentine's day without a special someone. yeah it sucks! i remember when i was in my previous job in Eastwood City, i see lots of guys running around holding a bouquet of flowers. wow, im just so jealous! although i also have one, but its different because it came from my sweet boss. ok before you think differently, my boss is a girl and she's married. she's just sweet, kind and she shares whatever she has. now back to my jealousy, hehe. so yeah, i can just imagine how their gfs would react if they receive those flowers. like what i usually say in our dialect "shocks! ang haba ng hair nung girl, kaiinggit." then my co-worker would say "you never know next time it will be your turn." hmmm.maybe she's right, because i can never be alone forever, oh no! just a matter of waiting for the right one to come and not hurrying up. thank God, i have a bf right now. although we are apart for now, i'd still be seeing him 2 days from now and im just so happy! now i realize what my co-worker had said before, yes this time, its my time to shine! hehehe..:D wow, just when im writing this post i received a message from my special someone saying "Happy Valentine's Day mahal ko!I miss you and love you so much! Can't wait to see you. All my love is yours. Please be my valentine, love tony". Omgeeeee! This is it!

Bella is in love! <3



p.s. i've written this today Feb 14, 2010. but it seems like blogger site is US time. nevertheless, i love this day! hope everyone have a happy valentine's day!!! <3

happy heart's day!

What my HEART wants to say---

God - thank you for giving me chance to live a life; for giving me the people who loves me right now; for the everyday blessings You are giving me; and being so loving despite my negative acts. Unconditionally, you love me. Conditionally i am to you, and im sorry for behaving like that. But i just want you to know, in our everyday chat before i go to bed, im happy for ending another day with you, i wanna thank you for all these wonderful gifts that i don't think i should be having considering the facts that, yes i've been a not so good child of yours. I love you, more than anything else in this world! And I just can't thank you enough for giving me this gift of life. I once failed you, or maybe i am still failing. But i have much stronger faith now, brave enough to pass your everyday test. I might not get the perfect score, but I'm surely gonna get the score i deserve base on my action. I love you, Jesus! <3

Mama - thank you for teaching me good lessons in life. I've proven it myself that "Mothers knows best", so true. And I'll always be thankful to God that He have given me a mother like you!

Papa - thank you for teaching me to be strong. I love him for giving me the freedom to express what i feel inside. And he never judge me for that, instead, he understood what i was going through. I'd be forever thankful to God that you are my father and that i am so lucky!

Kuya - for you being my only brother, thanks for explaining things i should know. I have the coolest brother in the world! Thanks for always being there for me and for protecting me to the people who hates me.

Friends - for you've all rock my world! I love you all...:D

BF - I want you, I need you and I love you. Thank you for making me realize that i am still worthy to be love and to love. Thank you for not letting go even when you have lots of reasons to do so. No one belongs here more than you. You have my heart and we'll never be a world apart! :)

To all of you who changed and rock my world, thank you so much and HAPPY HEARTS DAY! I wish all of us a happy and content heart.


Kisses,
bella

A Test of Love

And so now im sharing you a story about love from an unknown author. I really love this one! So, enjoy...:)

A Test of Love

John Blanchard stood up from the bench, straightened his Army uniform, and studied the crowd of people making their way through Grand Central Station.
He looked for the girl whose heart he knew, but whose face he didn't, the girl with the rose. His interest in her had begun thirteen months before in a Florida library. Taking a book off the shelf he found himself intrigued, not with the words of the book, but with the notes penciled in the margin. The soft handwriting reflected a thoughtful soul and insightful mind.

In the front of the book, he discovered the previous owner's name, Miss Hollis Maynell. With time and effort he located her address. She lived in New York City. He wrote her a letter introducing himself and inviting her to correspond. The next day he was shipped overseas for service in World War II.

During the next year and one-month the two grew to know each other through the mail. Each letter was a seed falling on a fertile heart. A Romance was budding.

Blanchard requested a photograph, but she refused. She felt that if he really cared, it wouldn't matter what she looked like.

When the day finally came for him to return from Europe, they scheduled their first meeting - 7:00 PM at the Grand Central Station in New York.

"You'll recognize me," she wrote, "by the red rose I'll be wearing on my lapel."

So at 7:00 he was in the station looking for a girl whose heart he loved, but whose face he'd never seen.

I'll let Mr. Blanchard tell you what happened:

A young woman was coming toward me, her figure long and slim. Her blonde hair lay back in curls from her delicate ears; her eyes were blue as flowers. Her lips and chin had a gentle firmness, and in her pale green suit she was like springtime come alive.

I started toward her, entirely forgetting to notice that she was not wearing a rose. As I moved, a small, provocative smile curved her lips.

"Going my way, sailor?" she murmured.

Almost uncontrollably I made one step closer to her, and then I saw Hollis Maynell. She was standing almost directly behind the girl. A woman well past 40, she had graying hair tucked under a worn hat. She was more than plump, her thick-ankled feet thrust into low-heeled shoes. The girl in the green suit was walking quickly away.

I felt as though I was split in two, so keen was my desire to follow her, and yet so deep was my longing for the woman whose spirit had truly companioned me and upheld my own.

And there she stood. Her pale, plump face was gentle and sensible, her gray eyes had a warm and kindly twinkle. I did not hesitate. My fingers gripped the small worn blue leather copy of the book that was to identify me to her.

This would not be love, but it would be something precious, something perhaps even better than love, a friendship for which I had been and must ever be grateful. I squared my shoulders and saluted and held out the book to the woman, even though while I spoke I felt choked by the bitterness of my disappointment.

"I'm Lieutenant John Blanchard, and you must be Miss Maynell. I am so glad you could meet me; may I take you to dinner?"

The woman's face broadened into a tolerant smile.

"I don't know what this is about, son," she answered, "but the young lady in the green suit who just went by, she begged me to wear this rose on my coat. And she said if you were to ask me out to dinner, I should go and tell you that she is waiting for you in the big restaurant across the street. She said it was some kind of test!"

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at the end of the day faith is a funny thing. it turns up when you don't really expect it. it's like one day you realize that you dreamed. the castle, well, it may not be a castle. and it's not so important happy ever afer, just that its happy right now. see once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprize you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away.

so happy now! :)

Officially over you, finally i can be happy!

Its been 9months now since i got the chance to see you again. Coinsidence brought you back to my arms, felt your love after years of trying to forget you. The very first person who taught me the art of loving and being loved. But i guess this love should really end and should have a "d" at the end. You have "loved" me before, no idea if you still do now. No more question should be ask. No more pain, no more waiting in vain. Thank you. Thank you for teaching me two important things in life. Loving and letting go. I've had the greatest love someone could ever dream of having. And even though it has to end, i thank you for hurting me and learning to let go. I am not meant for you, you are not meant for me. We are not meant for each other. Accepting these facts could have hurt me, but i wanna continue and have my own life without thinking of you coming back. No. If i can't make you happy and my love for you isn't enough, i don't have anything more to give. This love of mine isn't really for you.

After days, months, and years of finding the missing pieces of my broken heart, finally, my heart is whole again. I thought it would took me forever to finally let go. I thought its impossible. But God made it possible for me. Finally im officially over you now. No holding back, no turning back. This is official and yes, i don't want you anymore. Bye first love, im finally over you!

--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3-

Young, in love and happy!

My new love, thank you for helping me put the pieces back in place. This time, again, i am finding and learning the art of love you could teach me. I hope i won't mess up, so if i stumble let me know. We both know this would take time to get it right. Remember you said "don't worry, we still have forever to be together". Its always in my heart and in my mind. God is giving me the opportunity to be patient, and yes, i am being patient. I am waiting and will wait for you. We'll see if this will work. Im not afraid, whether this would work for us or not. In my mind and in my heart, it tells me not to stop and keep fighting. I have another chance to fight, this time i ask God's help for me not to give up. You know you got my back and i know i got yours.

It felt like im a new student of love again, so hoping for your patient, hoping you could understand and help me just in case i may treat you unwell. Im back to learning the art of love, so may i say sorry in advance. But please don't ever give up, because im doing my part to work it out. Despite the distance between us, im willing to wait and i know this would be so worth it. Because i can feel and i dont just want you but i need you to be the very last guy to love. I may not know the answer from God yet if you are the one for me, but if He would ask me, its you that i need.

My everyday life needed you. Whether you're beside me or not at the moment, just the thought of you being mine is more than enough. Im happy, and will continue to give you love more than you deserve without any question and even without asking love from you.