Tamia - Me (With Lyric)

Very nice. I love ME! <3

White Dress and Moving Backwards by Ben Rector

Awwwwwwwwwwwwww. The sweetest wedding ever! <3

The perfect wedding.

For some reason I've been browsing and searching for the best wedding video on youtube. Then I finally watched Tuesday Vargas' wedding. I laughed and almost cry while watching it. She's one of my favorite comedian on TV. And the day of her wedding, she was the most beautiful and the happiest girl in the world. She has a perfect groom, simple yet glamorous wedding gown, and the most solemn wedding I've ever watched. My most favorite part in a wedding is when the bride started walking in the aisle, and then her groom will look at her full of love, in tears, feeling like he's the luckiest guy marrying the most beautiful girl on earth. And obviously in Tuesday's wedding, her groom loves her so much. I can just see the look in his eyes when Tuesday was walking, very pretty in her long white dress. I wonder how does it feel for the two of them to finally begin a new chapter in their life. They said, when you meet the person you want to spend the rest of your life with, you want to start the rest of your life as soon as possible. I wonder how does it feel to finally fit in your long white gown, be the most beautiful woman on earth, to take your first step on the aisle, look for your groom and see the look in his eyes, the love you've been waiting for, a partner whom you would be with for the rest of your life...hayyyy im dreaming, i know i know! ;P

After watching the video for the nth time owredi...I felt so jealous and I wonder when and where will I ever meet someone whom I could possibly marry someday. Haha this is so funny, I don't even have a boyfriend! I'm turning 22 this year, I wanna fall in love. I really do! Like I wanna meet a stranger whom would turn out to be my future husband. I wanna be a friend, a lover, start a relationship, hopefully with the right guy this time coz I'm tired of starting all over again! I'd like to be a full time lover, understanding girlfriend, a never-would-give-up wife for him, my man's only best friend, a nurse, a chef for him. I'd like to laugh at him, love his imperfections, and hug him coz he's my first baby. I'd like to be there always, to listen, to be his diary or sanctuary. I'd like to be there and take care of him when he's sick and can't go to work. I'd like to cook a not-so-delicious food for him coz i know that he'd appreciate it. I'd like to spend my remaining days on earth loving him whether im his gf or wife owredi.

I know i know, oa oa oa much! Haha IDC. Seriously, all I'm trying to say in this blog tonight...I wanna fall in love. The questions are, how/when/where and with whom? :]

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He may not see I’m hurt. He may not see my cries. But every time he acts that he doesn’t care, I die.

Let me know if my heart is ready.

Is there such thing as "right time"? What if we only have "now"? Would we know if "now" is the right time? How would we know? How would it feel to be on that "right time" moment?

I'm single. Been to a lot of bf-gf relationships, yes. All my life I can say that I've always love to be "in love". Though it causes me pain and all the hurting, I still go back to being in love with the person I value and want to give my love big time. I've been there, done that, felt pain in every way you could possibly imagine.

When I love someone, I give all the love in the world. I admit that I'm not perfect. No one is perfect either. So, I don't get the point why a person questions your capabilty of loving, asks for something you don't have, do all the hurting and just leave you with nothing!

It really hurts to love someone when you can't tell what you really feel 'cause sometimes we get hurt without them knowing, we get jealous without the right to feel that way, we want their time without being in the position to demand for it, 'til our heart is breaking in silence. But despite it, we continue to love. Because somehow in this hurtful love there's still the hope of having simple moments with them even if it means being just a friend. They said its one form of loving. When you just want the best for someone, whether it includes you or not. :(

God has always been there for me after the "break up". He was even there all through out the relationship. And what I am thankful about is that He was always there for me to pick myself up, make me let go of the hurting feeling and heal my heart well. But I can't help myself asking until when will I be in that very familiar situation again? Is the said "right time, right place with the right person" will ever happen in my life? Thinking that what I only have is "now". I don't think signs will ever work for me. Forgive me Lord, but don't You worry I am trying my very best to still believe that somehow, someday, all this waiting will be worth it. And that You are just busy writing the best love story for me. And that all I have to do is wait and not hurry. I just want to fall in love again. Funny isn't it? I always get hurt when in love, but I can't help myself not to fall in love. I want to, and its the greatest feeling ever made. Guess that's the reason why I keep on trying. This time, guarding my heart would be the best thing to do. And will just let God ping me if its the right time already. :)))))))