Even If We Collide.

It's the scariest thing ever to realize how much someone means to you. When it really hits you, all these thoughts and questions rush through your head at once; a sad emotion even starts to creep up on you slowly, inch by inch as you start to wonder.

What if for some reason things don't work out? How are you possibly going to live without them?

Someone that was once a stranger is now the only person you know like the back of your hand. Someone you once had no emotions for now has the power to break your heart. Someone you never used to hang out with now owns most of your time. Someone you never thought you'd love now owns your entire heart.

Someone you once lived without, you now wish to hold onto forever.

God knows how I care and love someone. I'd be the craziest girlfriend ever. I know that's wrong at some point. I just don't believe that loving is a two way process. I always thought of it as simply GIVING and not expecting anything in return. Because that's where pain kicks in when you expect and you didn't get what you expect. Why not simply show love unselfishly? Love without expecting is really hard, I know. But that's what I am trying to achieve, oh well as much as possible. If the person you love truly loves you, let him show and make you feel his love. Love will always find the truth even if they try to change. Reality is reality. But love is love. We could never ask anyone to love us, let them be.

Ryan, my boyfriend, I love you. I know we both have questions at the back of our minds. But don't worry, we'll find the answers at the right time. There's a perfect reason why we are together. Funny how it started and how things changed. From a stranger - to simply being just a friend - now i have this feeling that I always hold on to. There might be a time in the future that we might unintentionally hurt each other, I hope you hold on. I love you for the way you are to me. For the feelings and love you are giving. I don't want this to end. Whatever this could lead us, I hope love is enough and pain would never be a reason for us to give up. This blog isn't enough for me to explain how I feel. I only have one life, I'd love to share it with you. Stay, everyday ok?

Got another song for you. See you soon! I love you. <3