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STAY - LISA LOEB

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i love you, so much!

..last year,
i've had a chance of looking back to my old love. a question was answered, he was not the right one.

..last year,
i have had loved a few, ok 2, oh it's 3, 3 frogs..wrong prince.. again.

then i thought of just give up these fairytale crap...

my heart is tired...uncapable of loving...unable to decide whether to continue fighting, continue waiting for nothing..im so bitter.

2010, twas another year to start anew.

and yes, it's now for the better...

i met a stranger like you at the first day of my new work for the new year.

so unexpectedly, you came into my life...you erased all the sadness filled my heart all these years...but you know what amazes me about it? its how you easily, effortlessly turned sadness to happiness with just being with you...thank you.

thank God for giving me YOU!

...i just want you to know that whatever this road may lead us, i'll try my best to hold on..to never let go. i won't promise anything, but one thing is for sure that i know of..I love you from the deepest of my heart and soul, you are the best thing that's ever happened to me!

and this song is for you, my lablab...i love you! <3

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RA-6u52VoD8

we all deserve to be happy!

...just sharing this quote i received 3 years ago. yes, 3 years ago..hehe.. this was the time that i was learning how to let go of the things that isn't for me or not the right time for me to have it. Here it is:


Don't let your heart run your life.
Be sensible and let your mind speak for itself.
Listen not only to your feelings but to reason as well.
Always remember that if you lose someone today,
it means that someone better is coming tomorrow.
It's true that love can wait forever.
But it's crazy to stubbornly hope for someone
who doesn't even care or understand how you feel.
You deserve to be happy
not in the arms of someone who keeps you waiting,
but in the arms of someone who will take you now
and love you forever.


...it's been 3 years now that i have celebrated valentine's day without a special someone. yeah it sucks! i remember when i was in my previous job in Eastwood City, i see lots of guys running around holding a bouquet of flowers. wow, im just so jealous! although i also have one, but its different because it came from my sweet boss. ok before you think differently, my boss is a girl and she's married. she's just sweet, kind and she shares whatever she has. now back to my jealousy, hehe. so yeah, i can just imagine how their gfs would react if they receive those flowers. like what i usually say in our dialect "shocks! ang haba ng hair nung girl, kaiinggit." then my co-worker would say "you never know next time it will be your turn." hmmm.maybe she's right, because i can never be alone forever, oh no! just a matter of waiting for the right one to come and not hurrying up. thank God, i have a bf right now. although we are apart for now, i'd still be seeing him 2 days from now and im just so happy! now i realize what my co-worker had said before, yes this time, its my time to shine! hehehe..:D wow, just when im writing this post i received a message from my special someone saying "Happy Valentine's Day mahal ko!I miss you and love you so much! Can't wait to see you. All my love is yours. Please be my valentine, love tony". Omgeeeee! This is it!

Bella is in love! <3



p.s. i've written this today Feb 14, 2010. but it seems like blogger site is US time. nevertheless, i love this day! hope everyone have a happy valentine's day!!! <3

happy heart's day!

What my HEART wants to say---

God - thank you for giving me chance to live a life; for giving me the people who loves me right now; for the everyday blessings You are giving me; and being so loving despite my negative acts. Unconditionally, you love me. Conditionally i am to you, and im sorry for behaving like that. But i just want you to know, in our everyday chat before i go to bed, im happy for ending another day with you, i wanna thank you for all these wonderful gifts that i don't think i should be having considering the facts that, yes i've been a not so good child of yours. I love you, more than anything else in this world! And I just can't thank you enough for giving me this gift of life. I once failed you, or maybe i am still failing. But i have much stronger faith now, brave enough to pass your everyday test. I might not get the perfect score, but I'm surely gonna get the score i deserve base on my action. I love you, Jesus! <3

Mama - thank you for teaching me good lessons in life. I've proven it myself that "Mothers knows best", so true. And I'll always be thankful to God that He have given me a mother like you!

Papa - thank you for teaching me to be strong. I love him for giving me the freedom to express what i feel inside. And he never judge me for that, instead, he understood what i was going through. I'd be forever thankful to God that you are my father and that i am so lucky!

Kuya - for you being my only brother, thanks for explaining things i should know. I have the coolest brother in the world! Thanks for always being there for me and for protecting me to the people who hates me.

Friends - for you've all rock my world! I love you all...:D

BF - I want you, I need you and I love you. Thank you for making me realize that i am still worthy to be love and to love. Thank you for not letting go even when you have lots of reasons to do so. No one belongs here more than you. You have my heart and we'll never be a world apart! :)

To all of you who changed and rock my world, thank you so much and HAPPY HEARTS DAY! I wish all of us a happy and content heart.


Kisses,
bella

A Test of Love

And so now im sharing you a story about love from an unknown author. I really love this one! So, enjoy...:)

A Test of Love

John Blanchard stood up from the bench, straightened his Army uniform, and studied the crowd of people making their way through Grand Central Station.
He looked for the girl whose heart he knew, but whose face he didn't, the girl with the rose. His interest in her had begun thirteen months before in a Florida library. Taking a book off the shelf he found himself intrigued, not with the words of the book, but with the notes penciled in the margin. The soft handwriting reflected a thoughtful soul and insightful mind.

In the front of the book, he discovered the previous owner's name, Miss Hollis Maynell. With time and effort he located her address. She lived in New York City. He wrote her a letter introducing himself and inviting her to correspond. The next day he was shipped overseas for service in World War II.

During the next year and one-month the two grew to know each other through the mail. Each letter was a seed falling on a fertile heart. A Romance was budding.

Blanchard requested a photograph, but she refused. She felt that if he really cared, it wouldn't matter what she looked like.

When the day finally came for him to return from Europe, they scheduled their first meeting - 7:00 PM at the Grand Central Station in New York.

"You'll recognize me," she wrote, "by the red rose I'll be wearing on my lapel."

So at 7:00 he was in the station looking for a girl whose heart he loved, but whose face he'd never seen.

I'll let Mr. Blanchard tell you what happened:

A young woman was coming toward me, her figure long and slim. Her blonde hair lay back in curls from her delicate ears; her eyes were blue as flowers. Her lips and chin had a gentle firmness, and in her pale green suit she was like springtime come alive.

I started toward her, entirely forgetting to notice that she was not wearing a rose. As I moved, a small, provocative smile curved her lips.

"Going my way, sailor?" she murmured.

Almost uncontrollably I made one step closer to her, and then I saw Hollis Maynell. She was standing almost directly behind the girl. A woman well past 40, she had graying hair tucked under a worn hat. She was more than plump, her thick-ankled feet thrust into low-heeled shoes. The girl in the green suit was walking quickly away.

I felt as though I was split in two, so keen was my desire to follow her, and yet so deep was my longing for the woman whose spirit had truly companioned me and upheld my own.

And there she stood. Her pale, plump face was gentle and sensible, her gray eyes had a warm and kindly twinkle. I did not hesitate. My fingers gripped the small worn blue leather copy of the book that was to identify me to her.

This would not be love, but it would be something precious, something perhaps even better than love, a friendship for which I had been and must ever be grateful. I squared my shoulders and saluted and held out the book to the woman, even though while I spoke I felt choked by the bitterness of my disappointment.

"I'm Lieutenant John Blanchard, and you must be Miss Maynell. I am so glad you could meet me; may I take you to dinner?"

The woman's face broadened into a tolerant smile.

"I don't know what this is about, son," she answered, "but the young lady in the green suit who just went by, she begged me to wear this rose on my coat. And she said if you were to ask me out to dinner, I should go and tell you that she is waiting for you in the big restaurant across the street. She said it was some kind of test!"

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at the end of the day faith is a funny thing. it turns up when you don't really expect it. it's like one day you realize that you dreamed. the castle, well, it may not be a castle. and it's not so important happy ever afer, just that its happy right now. see once in a while, once in a blue moon, people will surprize you, and once in a while people may even take your breath away.

so happy now! :)

Officially over you, finally i can be happy!

Its been 9months now since i got the chance to see you again. Coinsidence brought you back to my arms, felt your love after years of trying to forget you. The very first person who taught me the art of loving and being loved. But i guess this love should really end and should have a "d" at the end. You have "loved" me before, no idea if you still do now. No more question should be ask. No more pain, no more waiting in vain. Thank you. Thank you for teaching me two important things in life. Loving and letting go. I've had the greatest love someone could ever dream of having. And even though it has to end, i thank you for hurting me and learning to let go. I am not meant for you, you are not meant for me. We are not meant for each other. Accepting these facts could have hurt me, but i wanna continue and have my own life without thinking of you coming back. No. If i can't make you happy and my love for you isn't enough, i don't have anything more to give. This love of mine isn't really for you.

After days, months, and years of finding the missing pieces of my broken heart, finally, my heart is whole again. I thought it would took me forever to finally let go. I thought its impossible. But God made it possible for me. Finally im officially over you now. No holding back, no turning back. This is official and yes, i don't want you anymore. Bye first love, im finally over you!

--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3--<3-

Young, in love and happy!

My new love, thank you for helping me put the pieces back in place. This time, again, i am finding and learning the art of love you could teach me. I hope i won't mess up, so if i stumble let me know. We both know this would take time to get it right. Remember you said "don't worry, we still have forever to be together". Its always in my heart and in my mind. God is giving me the opportunity to be patient, and yes, i am being patient. I am waiting and will wait for you. We'll see if this will work. Im not afraid, whether this would work for us or not. In my mind and in my heart, it tells me not to stop and keep fighting. I have another chance to fight, this time i ask God's help for me not to give up. You know you got my back and i know i got yours.

It felt like im a new student of love again, so hoping for your patient, hoping you could understand and help me just in case i may treat you unwell. Im back to learning the art of love, so may i say sorry in advance. But please don't ever give up, because im doing my part to work it out. Despite the distance between us, im willing to wait and i know this would be so worth it. Because i can feel and i dont just want you but i need you to be the very last guy to love. I may not know the answer from God yet if you are the one for me, but if He would ask me, its you that i need.

My everyday life needed you. Whether you're beside me or not at the moment, just the thought of you being mine is more than enough. Im happy, and will continue to give you love more than you deserve without any question and even without asking love from you.

hopeful...

my song of da day:

Giving Myself by Jennifer Hudson


I thought:
-if i offer you my love, i can finally be happy
-its ok to be so far away from you, but every minute away was a reason for me to be lonely
-its ok to wait, but have to ask myself until when will i be waiting
-if i give you the freedom to hurt me, i can be numb of just accepting it
-if i give everything you ask, its enough for you to realize you needed me by your side

but:
-why am i feeling like you are just like them
-why do i see you as just another guy who will come and leave
-why do i still feel empty even if i know i have you
-why do i have to wait, where i've already been waiting for someone like you my whole life

What keeps you so long to be here by my side? And what keeps me from still wanting you and wanting to be with you in time?

but still:
I dedicate this song for you, and only to you. And no matter how long i should wait, just to be with you is all i wanted. All im asking is for you to make me feel confident about us. And that this would be worth the wait......***hopeful

back then...

I just wanted to make a short blog about my school days. Because i miss my classmates!! Wahhh...How can this be so sad! :(

Wow, im so missing those days when i was still studying. :( I've had the best high school life and unforgettable college experience.

If someone would ask me what part of my life was the best, high school days. Although im kinda neird back then, i've had lots of friends (too many, actually). Im always active in school activies. And the most challenging part when i was elected as President in one of the two big societies in school, we call it Path Finders. Im not into dancing, im into singing and acting. But now, i can just look back to those days of my life. No more singing, no more acting, no more meetings, no more cutting classes and a lot no more. Hayyyy..And those ultimate crushes, omg! How i wish i can turn back time.



College days? Although i wouldn't want to go back to my college life (because of the "thesis" ayaw na parang awa!), i've had a wonderful experience. I've met some of the truest people on earth. And luckily for me, i am still keeping them until now. I guess im really lucky having my "barkada" who have been with me good / bad times. We call ourselves "shanghai". The reason is that, every lunch time we used to eat at a small carinderia. Obviously, our favorite food is "shanghai"..It's so funny how we used to eat it almost everyday! We just love it! And not only we are addicted to shanghai, we also love eating friend chicken after class. Wow, i've just realize we love to eat! Why is that? hehe.. Anyway, that's just our bonding, we cherish every moment, we love to always be together. What's weird is that all of us were broken hearted, seriously! Omg! That's why we need each other. I can say, that they had really touched my life even until now. We see to it that even if we're all in different places now, we still have communication. I now look forward to our reunion, which i am excited about. Yey! I can't wait to see them again...miss them so much! Especially now that i have my own life and everything had changed. I am preparing for my future, although future is still blur for me. But its ok, as long as my friends will stay for the rest of my life! I love them so much...miss you girls!!! :(




...the witch can now sleep, good mornight!!

Hey!

I needed to say:

Thank you, for being the source of my happiness. You're like my battery, i only function if you're here. Thank you for making me be "me", when the world tells me i am not. When the world tells me i am not supposed to be happy. When the world is asking me something in return for my happiness. Thank you for trusting me. Although i know its not a big deal for you. I just wanted you to know that for me, it is. Its not that i use you for my happiness, you were the way to my happiness. I am not expecting something more. But i am not ending the possibilities, im sorry i think i have to say that. Because we still don't know. We never can tell. But i guess, no. Now, im confuse. haha! But seriously, I am not playing around, its true that i care for you. Being your friend is an honor.

Although sometimes i don't understand you and your emotions. You are rude at times, but not so rude (tamang rudeness, in other words!). I just wanted you to know that im here to listen. I can always be your obidient friend? My heart is open for you, you already have the key to it. Just leave your slippers outside, ok?

I wanna keep you forever. Again, I am not expecting something more. I don't want you to say i assumed too much. Being your freind is more than enough. Thanks for your friendship!

--->im still ur,
wytwitch! :)

..i kinda hate the title of this..hmmm! but im loving this song :)

STATUS: Confuse.

Is it too much to ask to be loved by the person you love?

She never asked anything when she first love him. She did what she think that can make him happy. She gave love more than he deserves. But he was not happy still. She gave her world, time and affection. But for him, its not enough. He took her for granted. Is everything not enough? If its not enough, what else could she give? They said, love is not selfish. But why does he keep on asking for more? Why is he just thinking of his own happiness? Does she really need to please him? What about her? Who will please her? Who will give her what she want? Couldn't it be like, no one should ask for anything? Let each other give and show the love that they wanted to show without asking. . .Why does he ask a lot. And why is her everything not enough? Is it because her everything was not the everything that he wanted? She's confuse. Still confuse. She just wanted to be happy, get what she deserve, be love in return, not be taken for granted, and not being ask for giving her everything although her everything was not enough for him after all. Why still ask for it?

It should be equal, durrrrrrmmm!!!!!!!!! :(

--->forgiven, but not forgotten.

I remember you teached me to play guitar. It feels so great learning. But for me, at that time, the most important thing was you. Important moments that i've had in my entire life, being with you was like counting the best days of my life. I remember almost every minutes we had together was so precious. Do you still remember many didn't like you for me or me for you? It was so hard, yes it is. But then, i still believe in the love that we have for each other. I felt so secured and that nothing can tear us apart. Its like im living my everyday life for the reason that i have you and you needed me.

And so i remember the very first song i've learned from you...



After 3 years, i realized why you had taught me on playing this. Its not that i blame you for what had happened to our failed relationship. But i come up with the fact that, i have to sing this song for you. Do i have to cry for you? This time, do i still have to cry for you? 3 years have gone so fast, but here i am still haunted by our past. I know i shoud move on. But why is it so hard? I have had love, well, some guys after you. But nothing could ever compare the love i have felt from you. I guess, i shouldn't compare them, it would be so unfair. And besides, they did their best to make me happy, it just didn't work. Because the truth was, i am still in love with you. Yes i am, at least now i've learned to live without you, but still loving you. I guess they're right. Once you love someone, you never stop loving that person. Its just that sometimes in some situation, time is asking you to stop showing it. Which is, i should say, the hardest part. Should i still be asking myself with the same question over and over again? Stop it!! From now on, i will love the person who's loving me and willing to make me happy like the way i wanted. I need to have my life back. And im sure, i know, you won't give it back. So now, im trying my best to look for it to someone else. It may not be exactly as what you've shown me, but this time i will make sure it will be exactly what i deserve.

Do they still exist nowadays?

A guy who could do all these for his girl, i'll be so jealous!! I hope they still exist...This is a repost that im sharing. And hopefully guys would have some ideas of what girls really like or want. Although i know, if you truly love someone its easy doing all these things for your girl without someone telling you to do it, you'll just do. For once in a girl's life, gives us more love! I mean, that's just what we really wanted. Let me just say "maepal and papampam" we really are. Sorry girls, i think i just have to admit it. So here it is, enjoy...:-)


60 THINGS A GAL/LADY/WOMAN WANTS BUT WONT ASK FOR!!

1. Touch her waist.
2. Actually talk to her.
3. Share secrets with her.
4. Give her 1 of your sweatshirts
5. Kiss her slowly.

Are you remembering this?

6. Hug her.
7. Hold her.
8. Laugh with her.
9. Invite her everywhere.
10. Hangout with her and your friends together.

KEEP READING...

11. Smile with her.
12. Take pictures with her.
13. Pull her onto your lap.
14. When she says she loves you more, deny it. Fight back.
15. When her friends say i love her more than you, deny it. fight back and hug her tight so she can't get to her friends. it makes her feel loved.

Are you thinking of someone?

16. Always hug her and say hi whenever you see her.
17. Kiss her unexpectedly.
18. Hug her from behind around the waist.
19. Tell her she's beautiful.
20. Tell her the way you feel about her.

One last thing you need to do to show her you actually do mean it...

21. Open doors for her, walk her to her car (if any)- it makes her feel protected, plus it never hurts to act like a gentleman.
22. Tell her she's your everything - ONLY if you mean it.
23. If it seems like there is something wrong, ask her- if she denies something being wrong, it means SHE DOESN'T WANT TO TALK ABOUT IT- so just hug her.
24. Make her feel loved.
25. Kiss her in front of OTHER girls you know

WE MIGHT DENY IT BUT WE ACTUALLY LIKE IT AND KINDA WANT YOU TO TICKLE US

26. DON'T lie to her
27. DON'T cheat on her!
28. Take her ANYWHERE she wants
29. Text messege or call her in the morning and tell her have a good day at work {or school}, and how much you MISS her.
30. Be there for her when ever she needs you, & even when she doesn't need you, just be there so she'll know that she can ALWAYS count on you.

ARE YOU STILL READING THIS? YOU BETTER BECAUSE, IT'S IMPORTANT

31. Hold her close when she's cold so she can hold YOU too.
32. When you are ALONE hold her close and kiss her.
33. Kiss her on the CHEEK: (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss her).
34. While in the movies, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin up and kiss her LIGHTLY.
35. Dont EVER tell her to leave even jokingly or act like you're mad. If shes upset, comfort her.

REMEMBER ALL THESE THINGS WHEN YOU ARE WITH HER NEXT

36. When people DISS her, stand up for her.
37. Look deep into her EYES and tell her you love her.
38. Lay down under the STARS and put her head on your chest so you can cuddle.
39. When walking next to each other grab her HAND.
40. When you hug her HOLD her in your arms as long as possible

MAKE SURE SHE KNOWS SHES LOVED

41. Call or text her EVERY night to wish her SWEET DREAMS
42. COMFORT her when she cries and wipe away her tears.
43. Take her for LONG walks at night.
44. ALWAYS remind her how much you love her.
45. Sit on top of her and tell her how much u love her and then bend down to her face and kiss her while sitting on her.
46. Rub her back--feels good
47. Give her your coat if she's cold--thats always cute
48. Write letters on her back with your finger--feels good ;D
49. Let her sit on your lap
50. DON'T poke her hard...but if you want to mess around just do it lightly.
51. HOLD her HAND in PUBLIC.
52. Even if she looks BAD one day tell her she's BEAUTIFUL
53. Keep conversations flowing...talk about anything usually they just go along with it.
54. If their hair is in their face move it out of her face and then kiss her passionatley and gently.
55. Surprisingly sneek up on her and hug her from behind--loves it.
56. Kiss her in the rain.
57. Pick her up like in The Notebook and kiss her.
58. Slow dance with no music
59. Don't ignore her or be nerveous around her--everything is going to be okay.
60. Love her, kiss her, hold her, and you'll be good to go. ;D

Worth The Wait----

Im loving the songs of Jordin Sparks. I can relate to almost all of her songs! Wow...:) And this song really fits my current life entitled "Worth the Wait". This is for my baby...I love you so much! <3





---i know it will be worth the wait! Can't wait!!!!