Let me know if my heart is ready.

Is there such thing as "right time"? What if we only have "now"? Would we know if "now" is the right time? How would we know? How would it feel to be on that "right time" moment?

I'm single. Been to a lot of bf-gf relationships, yes. All my life I can say that I've always love to be "in love". Though it causes me pain and all the hurting, I still go back to being in love with the person I value and want to give my love big time. I've been there, done that, felt pain in every way you could possibly imagine.

When I love someone, I give all the love in the world. I admit that I'm not perfect. No one is perfect either. So, I don't get the point why a person questions your capabilty of loving, asks for something you don't have, do all the hurting and just leave you with nothing!

It really hurts to love someone when you can't tell what you really feel 'cause sometimes we get hurt without them knowing, we get jealous without the right to feel that way, we want their time without being in the position to demand for it, 'til our heart is breaking in silence. But despite it, we continue to love. Because somehow in this hurtful love there's still the hope of having simple moments with them even if it means being just a friend. They said its one form of loving. When you just want the best for someone, whether it includes you or not. :(

God has always been there for me after the "break up". He was even there all through out the relationship. And what I am thankful about is that He was always there for me to pick myself up, make me let go of the hurting feeling and heal my heart well. But I can't help myself asking until when will I be in that very familiar situation again? Is the said "right time, right place with the right person" will ever happen in my life? Thinking that what I only have is "now". I don't think signs will ever work for me. Forgive me Lord, but don't You worry I am trying my very best to still believe that somehow, someday, all this waiting will be worth it. And that You are just busy writing the best love story for me. And that all I have to do is wait and not hurry. I just want to fall in love again. Funny isn't it? I always get hurt when in love, but I can't help myself not to fall in love. I want to, and its the greatest feeling ever made. Guess that's the reason why I keep on trying. This time, guarding my heart would be the best thing to do. And will just let God ping me if its the right time already. :)))))))